Sometimes, there can feel like no reason go on, there can feel like no reason to keep trying. I start to wonder why I am trying so hard. I start to think there is something, wrong, different, insane about me. Then, I look around, and I realize that it is true---- that I am different---I want to accomplish positivity.
Positivity, sadly, isn’t a state of mind that is rampant in America. It’s something that we constantly reinvent within ourselves. We wake up every morning, look in the mirror, and try to salvage a relationship with the greater unknown within the time context of a day. We wake up everyday and can only try, to our greatest extent, to be the best that we can be.
There will still be people out there who are telling us that we aren’t trying hard enough. There will still be people out there who will tell us that we don’t even know what trying is: but we do. We do know what trying is, we do know what positivity is, and the best that we can do is try—and that is how we know that we do everything in our power to do the best, and sometimes that isn’t enough….
…And sometimes it is.
This weekend, I was able to beat my time from a meager 30 minute mile to a 26:52 sec run!!! Very exciting stuff. It’s made me realize that I can change gears. It’s just that sometimes positivity turns out to be in a different direction than you wondered or hoped for. But I still keep reaching for the stars, because it’s where I want to be.
Godspeed to you all.